Daily Bread

It's been a long time since I have created a blog. For all the obvious reasons ... the main one being no inspiration. I'm feeling newly inspired. Front and Centered is still where I want to be ... I want to stay centered and be confident enough to not hide, which is the front part. And I desire my confidence to come from Christ alone ... but I don't trust myself ... so I stay hidden ... maybe sometimes my confidence is coming from Christ and sometimes it's coming from self, but whatever the origination, that is what is real ... so here I am back again ... I'll leave it for you to decide, to be the judge of my intentions ...

Today I want to live for Christ ... but I've heard that that means dying to self ... and that is not possible for me. I'm too selfish and self-absorbed. So, I'm going to leave the dying to self for Christ to sort out and make a reality and I'm going to trust Him to do it. After all, dying to myself is not something I can manufacture. But I can say, "Lord, help me for this day to die to myself and serve you as a true disciple. Give me today what I need to do that and help me to accept what you give me as enough for this day."

So far today He has given me this to share ...

His Word is my daily bread ... because He said, "Man does not live by bread alone but by every Word that comes from the mouth of God." I wish that were true in reality because then I wouldn't need to eat food and I'd be thin. But what it really means is that it would be best if I could put first things first and care MORE about what God has to say to me that what I put in my mouth! It would be best if I were greedy and hungry for His Word more than for cake and cookies! Because truly what is really sweet in this world and what is really satisfying is a relationship with Jesus, the Almighty God, the maker of heaven and earth who made all things seen and unseen ... and that should fill me up, satisfy me, give me the desires of my heart and ultimately cause me to not "crave" carbs and fat greasy things that aren't good for me.

But I still do ... I still crave them more than God ... but He loves me through it and is with me through it and that is very satisfying to me. I just want to feast on that! That the God of the universe cares for me. Thank you Jesus. You died for me. You forgive me for craving things more than you. You are the center of my life of my being. I live and move in you ... please remain the center.

And thank you for this feast of food that you have also given to me for this day. Because you know I need to eat real food too. So here it is. And thank you. Help me not complain that it is not cake and cookies and to be grateful that I can afford healthy food. And help me to be generous to share of the good healthy food you give me with others.

Because that would be evidence of my belief that my daily bread comes from your hand, so I can be generous, because with you there is always enough. Thank you for giving me this day my daily bread. Amen.